Busy Day!

I took the ACT today…grr

It pissed me off.

I had to guess on the last questions on almost all the sections.

I was dead tired. I couldn’t sleep last night.

My dogs were freaking out.

Anyways…

I talked to that girl I was sad about last night.

I feel much better now.

We talked a lot, and we got a lot of things on the table.

There may be hope for me yet, but, for now, we’re friends.

Anyways.

So after the ACT, I had to go unload and reload our trailer to help move my sister.

Not a great time…too hot out!

But now, we have to go unload it again…JOY!!!

Haha!

But after that, we’re going to see a movie at the Greene.

I’m so excited!

=]]]

But yeah. I may post later tonight.

I plan to post on this everyday, or at least keep you filled in on my daily life…

Even if it’s only every other day. =]

Piano…

It’s one of two loves in my life.

The first, is this amazing girl…

But piano, is my forever love. No matter what, nothing can replace it. It’s a part of me. When I’m not near one, I’m sad, lonely, heartbroken. So I spend my time there, playing, singing, writing. It’s the one place I can always trust to comfort me. When I sit at a piano, I live…and I mean live. I don’t sit and look at it, I play it. I create music. I live for it.

So when I think about never being able to play again, I am saddened. I know it may happen someday, but, I pray to God that it won’t. I want the piano to consume me, to swallow me and let me be happy for all eternity. If I could, I would die playing the piano. It’s a part of me. Music is my blood. I can’t imagine life without it. I couldn’t live life without it.

If you’ve ever felt that strongly about anything or anyone in your life, then you know how I feel.

It’s indescribable.

Life in Turmoil…

Alright…so I’m pretty stressed right now.

I have to take the ACT tomorrow…again…

I’m tired of taking it. My parents are making me.

This will be the third time.

Well, It’s not like I’m just trying to hit this bar or anything. Nope!

I got a 27 as a freshmen in HS. This April, I got a 32.

What more can they expect?!?

And then they’re are making me get a job.

I want the money, but, I don’t wanna be forced to get a job.

I’ll have to work the rest of my life…

WHY NOW!?!

On top of that, I am going to camp in a couple weeks.

I have to fly alone to Nashville via Detroit. I don’t really mind, but…

Then I have to find the transportation to the camp…grr…

And then I have to get back to the airport.

I also have to pack everything in a carry-on because my dad scheduled my flight…

He didn’t give me much time between flights, so…

Whatever!

Anyways, I’m not happy with my parents right now…

They are really ticking me off!

On the plus side, they did just buy me two pairs of shorts, 9 shirts, and a pair of shoes…

I guess I shouldn’t be too upset with them…

It just makes me mad!

I’m 17 and I can’t make any of my own choices.

It’s all up to them…

Still…

Whatever!

Sorry about my rant. I just felt like getting it all written down.

=]

Momentum…The Hush Sound

You are the dark ocean bottom
And I am the fast sinking anchor
Should I fall for you,
Should I fall for you?
You are the scar on my tissue
That I show all of my new friends
Should I show you me,
Should I show you me?

All we need is a little bit of momentum
Breakdown these walls that we’ve built around ourselves
All we need is a little bit of inertia
Breakdown and tell, breakdown and tell

That you are the rain on the fire
Deep in the trees when no one was looking
Should I speak of this,
Should I speak of this?
You are a mirage in the distance
That defies the heat of the desert
Should I believe in you,
Should I believe in you?

All we need is a little bit of momentum
Breakdown these walls that we’ve built around ourselves
All we need is a little bit of inertia
Breakdown and tell, breakdown and tell

These rules are made to break and these walls are built to fall
These rules are made to break us

These rules are made to break and these walls are built to fall
These rules are made to break us all

All we need is a little bit of momentum
Breakdown these walls that we’ve built around ourselves
All we need is a little bit of inertia
Breakdown and tell, breakdown and tell
That you are…
Break down and tell (x4)
That you are…

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I’ve wondered…a lot…and I was talking about maybe having a relationship, and we didn’t talk much, but…

She told me she makes relationships complicated and that I wouldn’t want to deal with it…

So we talked a while longer, then she changed her profile song to this….

And I don’t know if it is a hint that she does want a relationship, but doesn’t know what to do…

I just wish I knew what to do…

She’s my first love and I’ve almost ruined it a million times now…

I just don’t wanna ruin it completely…

Grrr…